So, it’s been a few weeks since I last blogged. I am so bad about keeping up with this. I don’t want it to be fake. I want to keep my posts authentic and original, but of course I want them to be engaging and interesting.
I could write lists of my favorite things all day long, but when I look back on this blog, those won’t be the things I care to see. I will care about my journey. So, I’ve decided I will *try* to blog at least once a week, but I am aiming for twice a week. I will try to be real about what’s going on in my life, and not put a pretty little filter over it.
I realize that most bloggers try to make their life look perfect, and that is totally understandable. Being vulnerable and sharing the not-so-perfect stuff with strangers is a difficult thing.
I want to share my struggles, my fears, my good days AND my bad days.
So, here’s to being REAL!
Let me start off by talking about January.
This January has been one of the most awful starts to the year for us. Actually, it’s probably been our worst month ever. The struggles we had this month might seem frivolous to some, so I don’t want to go into complete detail, but I will say it’s been rough.
Lots of crying, frustration, and anxiety.
Logan got an interview with a great company last month, just a few days before Christmas. He left the interview feeling very confident, and took the second part of the interview that day. Then he went and did the THIRD part of the interview and was offered the job, upon the review of his background check. Unfortunately the offer had to be taken off the table because of 2 speeding tickets he got 2 years ago. (Their company policy is no more than 1 speeding tick in the last 3 years.)
It was a pretty depressing way to start the holiday, to say the least. Logan was devastated.
Another struggle for us the last few months has been the transition from Root Avenue to Modern Scout. Root Avenue was our main income for just over a year. It did great! However, with the over saturation of the market, and the new Instagram algorithm, I feared that it may not always be as successful as it was this last year. So, as I started to neglect Root to focus on MS, I could see that it was rubbing off on my followers.
I totally believe that my customer’s could sense that my passion was not FULLY there, and I believe it rubbed off. While RA has still been great, it is not reliable.
With all that said, it’s been a pretty stressful start to the year. The unknown is scary!
Despite the stress, I can say that I am still extremely thankful for the many blessings in my life. My babies are my world, and they make me smile every single day. (Even the days that I want to rip my hair out…which, let’s face it, is almost every day.)
Sawyer turned one a couple months ago, and Cash turns THREE in a couple weeks. AH, how will I survive in a house with a 1 year old and 3 year old.
Sawyer tries hard to keep up with her brother. It’s crazy how quickly she catches on to things. She has also become quite the monkey, and climbs on everything! She can say a few words, but her favorite by far is “YEAH!” and it is soooo cute when she says it. Oh, and I just weaned her. Since we call her Soy Bean, I called the it, Operation :Wean The Bean. I crack myself up. She made it extremely difficult, but it had to be done, for my own sanity.
Cash has thrived the past few months. He knows all of his letters, numbers, colors, shapes, and animals, and he has been fully potty trained since October. He is like a parrot, and repeats everything. (Which has made me try to make habit of not cursing.) He is definitely one of a kind, and can be quite the handful. But when he is in a good mood, he is just the sweetest little guy.
Both of my kids think the world of me, even when my patience is short with them. Their love is like nothing I have ever known before. It is truly amazing. They have my heart!
My goals for the rest of this month are to get my shit more organized, stay optimistic and focused.
Praying that this rest of this month goes out with a bang! (A good bang.)